EX TENEBRIS CRESCIT FLOS
SEVENTEEN DAYS IN PARADISE
A Daily Diary
March 13-31, 2003
I have reached a major milestone in my life. Previously, I have spent no
more than five days straight (Memorial Day
Weekend,
2002) as a woman. That experience, while it was wonderful and liberating,
was imperfect. At that time, I was not confident enough to interact with
anyone. I took my first tentative steps out in public, but I did not really
live fully as a woman. Interaction with others is a vitally important part
of this. Now, I am confident going out in public anywhere that I would have
gone as a man, so I can truly experience what it is like to be a woman. And
I don't have just a few short days to do this - I have more than half a month!
I will live fully as a woman from the evening of Thursday, March 13 until
the early morning of March 31. That is seventeen full days, plus one evening!
This is not all just for fun, however. The serious side of this is that I
am planning to start taking hormones soon after this experience ends. These
seventeen days constitute the final experiment which will finalize my decision
to start down the Path of No Return. While
I am
on vacation, I will do as much research as I can on the physical effects of
hormones, and I will work on my voice, which is my most serious passability
problem at this point. Soon afterwards,
I will see my psychiatrist. Although he has already
recommended me for hormones, I believe that I should see him once more before
I actually start. After that, I will get the necessary medical tests and
get my prescription. Of course, if the experiment leaves substantial
uncertainty, I will delay these plans. This is perhaps the most important
decision I will ever make, so I cannot be too careful.
Of course, I will have fun too. I have numerous books that I have not had
time to read, so it will be nice to catch up on them. Also, with some of the
best deserts in the world nearby, I cannot resist the urge to get out into
the wilderness. The desert is the most serene and peaceful environment on the
planet - it will be a great place to sit and think. Certainly, shopping will
be a priority; I am sure I will spend too much money!
This experience is so important to me that I do not wish to allow my memories
of it to fade. Consequently, I will write down as much as I can. It will take
the form of a daily diary. Each day's entry will be divided into sections.
First, I must write about what I wore that day. Clothing is just SO important
to us trannies. I will even try to get as many photographs as I can.
In the second section, I will describe the activities of the day. Finally,
I will put down my thoughts and feelings for that day. If I do all of this,
the precious memories will survive. Of course, this is all so wonderful that
I feel like I have to announce it to the whole world. Therefore, all of these
entries will end up on this website for all to see!
I guess this is enough of an introduction. The links to the daily entries can
be found below this paragraph. I will activate the links as I upload the
entries. This is very exciting. I can't wait to see how it turns out!
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